I don’t know weather to laugh or cry. On the one hand I’m soo happy, things are falling into place and I haven’t felt this good in years. On the other things are not what I want and I’m fed up of all this cloak and dagger nonsense, all the double talk and secret crap. So it’s not that I’m unhappy or that I’m happy. I just don’t know what to feel and on that note I say screw everyone I feel like me today and that is just it.